Coming back up from... From my best place on Earth

And,so I have not written in this blog for quite some time.  I have set this aside, done so many other things, and am coming back because I would appreciate your Auditing My Hello as many times as you deem possible and necessary.  Things have changed in my life, as have I, but the posts will remain the same.  I will write as I speak, and get nervous when she comes too close, and live for the best moments of my life, and live believing those are when we are together.  So I will stutter... I will forget the perfect words to say because I want to make sure they are the perfect ones... I will do everything to live in happiness... I will always be consistent in my love, in my writing, in my expectations, in every word, and I won't repeat myself too much.  Staying interested is my goal.  Making this fun is my purpose.  Entertaining is meant to be the end result.  And so now I ask, will you read?  Will you follow?  Will you see yourself in my speech as I write, or will you just... I hope to see you soon, and soon once again.

This is Lily being followed

Em... I'm at Apple... in training, and this experience is quite odd.  (And this should have been published in 2008, while right now it is 4 years later in 2012, and I am hitting the "publish" button right as we speak)

My Goal for the Past 3 Days...

Adsense will not allow me to create video units. Must i digress on my particular goal here?  i want to add video units but Adsense does not want to allow me to do so.  That is certainly a shame.

The bit... BiTE on the Bailout!

There is so much to think, say, and even just listen to and discuss at times on this whole bailout issue. I have been meaning to mention how confused I am about this whole ordeal. I may be in the dark about the whole thing, but I am sure not everyone knows and understands the whole detail about what is actually happening. If anything, I just have questions I would like answers to. It's not only because of the money I make, yes working in this country, is partially going towards this, but because I want to know of any implications which may not yet be fully and readily available to the general public! Those implications turn into issues, turn into problems, turn into bailouts - that's when we "general" folks are thrown the curve and all's ablaze! So, first question... why is this happening in the first place? I've read the credit/mortgage crisis has played a huge role. Has that same mortgage crisis caused this recession we are still being advised we have not entered, yet. Notice, please, the inclusion of "yet" is not totally optional. Am I the only person who believes we are heading there, just striding instead of sprinting? So I want to know the why, and to that please follow up with the how. Now, should I be even more upset because all of these dollars going to this bailout, and not something better - useful - ultimately logical and rational if you will? Would this money have been used for something like that in the long run? Was it just going to sit there, regardless? If it's gonna be sitting pretty, why not use it for this? Was... no, this wasn't going into the defense, was it? Now, in all sincerity, I would like to know if allocation is the main issue causing surveys, screaming, and shouting... or is it a fear of a tax-hike? I'm confused, but for the most part I think lots of everyone else are too.

FOR THE RECORD!!!!!

US!!!!! IS THE MOST IMPORTANT "THING" AT ALL TIMES! IT'S NOT "RIGHT NOW"! IT'S ALWAYS! {{{{{i feel this small after reading that! it's not acceptable. it really is not... My Hello has been Audited, yes - i did it! and NO it's NOT A FAILURE! SO, as i was saying = im truly the worst social scumbucket this side of scumbucketness there is! & there's only this scumbucket here!!!!!}}}}}

The daily task for today=

im sending stuff to try and make some money, because like i say right now im... not broke, just... i want to buy things! i want to spend money! no, i don't spend money on... i like to spend, yes invest, money on us. that's the only important thing right now, and so, im thinking in order to spend i need to have... right? so, im doing everything i can, planning as much as possible, to make sure that i have enough to spend to make more to spend. and so, so yes... i am going... where am i going? im going to... where am i going? i don't wanna go anywhere! i refuse to be taken anywhere else! im putting my foot down here! yes! and, and... well yes... and im putting the poems i wrote up! maybe not here, but well, i'le tell you where... you will be the first to know! i swear.  it's that seriousness!!!!! it's certainly never funny business! and did i mention i... i think it's time for a snack! so... so now, now im thinking that i should... yes... yes... im finishing this now, and yes... yes im going to make sure that... well the... yes, im finishing this now and... so... so, so yes. yes... this is of the highest utmost necessity right now and im not... im putting... no... no feet are going anywhere just... yes... yes.

so? beauty can bee hot, right? What about style?

so im going to pick a bone right here right now. there is nothing wrong with wearing a scarf, in the summer! i understand, sometimes, well... i know what some of the scarves they sell on the corners of NYC streets are like... thick, and if you attempt one like that in the summer heat attempt to get yourself re-hydrated, too. But, a light fabric, something... im not talking chiffon here, i mean, it's for the day so, and not satin because... well... something, like a very light cotton, like even a silk... but a natural silk- so that's it! a natural fabric, in the summer, regardless the heat, is actually good. i... i... im going to plead the 5th about scarves!!!!! I understand why, and so - but the point here is, that a natural fabric in the summer, as a scarf, is a great thing. if it's woven, why not? something where the air can flow through naturally, and at the same protect and style the skin better and best. i say do it! i've been eyeing mine. and im trying, i swear! but... they are certainly for the winter, the majority - somewhat unfortunately, the heat on this side of the world is not like NYC's... or anywhere on the East coast - humidity is less, temperatures are high, and i've been going cactus all summer long!!!!! It's a good thing actually! drinking lots of water, makes you renew your skin much well! Sweat out the old, in with the new! PEOPLE!!!!! our body is 80% water! Drink some new water! im thinking the old is ready to be... well... filtered, no? My point is here, forget the water, forget going cactus, and just... i say screw the world! and wear yourself a hot, stylish, scarf in the summer!!!!! oh! and if you manage something yellow, that works even better!!!!!

(i am wondering and waiting for her answer) YES MA'AM!!!!! BOSS!!!!!

post? "Really Essential"... or keep it secret sneaky? may what... buti... what about something here, and... but if i... but it's a necessity! plees i'm not thinking "sharing is caring" unless... but when i... yes... no it is not necessary buti... YES MA'AM!!!!! so it is essential, an answer because it's... plees. There is this issue now, and i'm not sure what's best - because if i post the poem, or any poem, or anything at all, i feel rotten, like more like, OMGimarottenshamefullsocialscumbucket!!!!! so, what am i supposed to do? maybe just... butibutibuti... buti buti... im wanting to be tuff here, and this is not working well, because well, i'm... "YES MA'AM!!!! YES BOSS!!!!!" so, post, not post, i'm being nice here, and well, i'm not doing well at all, not doing something close, not keeping clean, not... and i'm... i'm really doing my best, and well... it's... but.. i'm going. yes ma'am. i'm logging off, and no i'm not taking long to say goo.. ciao. yes. i'm finished. yes. no buti... buti, it' s not... yes. this is niceness and so i'm getting out of here right now. i'm going to my... yes... i'm lawfull! i follow the law! the entire time! i'm... yes. i'm logged off now!!!!!

no alert? US!!!!! ALERT!!!!! NOW!!!!!

i will write a poem. and it will have the name of "Really Essential". it will say things i like a lot. that my favorite trend is black pants. that i wear a uniform of black pants and white V-neck tee's that come 6 bucks a pack of 6. i like belts. i think i will be spending a lot of money on my wife. i think i will be working to spoil her, but i don't prefer her rotten, unless she says so, and then, well, rotten it is. but she's best in either way, it hardly matters, because i am... so i am... i am setting that stuff aside, not that... well, i'm... i follow the law! there is only one law in life! so... so, i'm making an announcement of this poem. it's "Really Essential" and that... that i think she wants me to go now. so i was thinking that...